29.What other people think of you is none of your business.

I'm in bed sick, and I'm kind of bummed I had to cancel my run yesterday. But it has given me a chance to reflect on something that has been bothering me for almost a week.

I've mentioned that group of girls I used to be friends with before. It's been almost a year since the blow up and I've been happily living my life without them. Circumstances beyond my control have brought them back into my life, or at least the fringes of it. I have been polite and civil, nothing more, nothing less. But being that they think this is high school have decided to try and start drama.

Labor Day weekend one of them apparently told my friends roommate that I am anorexic. And I developed this ED while and because I worked at Hooters -- I apparently was one of the biggest girls there (which is why I wore the crop top right?). And they heard this from my best guy friend-- the one with whom I forged a relationship based on food and alcohol. Nothing in this lie makes sense.

I eat. A lot. And I love it. I had no body image issues before during or after my stint as a Hooters Girl. Sure I'm not perfect but I'm happy with my body, I work hard for it.

They aren't the first people to call me anorexic, and that by itself doesn't bother me. But if you're going to spread lies like this--own up to starting them yourself.

And if you're aiming to hurt me I might suggest trying a little harder-- because insecure girls with issues with food and body image calling me anorexic doesn't make me self conscious, it makes me laugh. And makes me inclined to laugh at you and get other people to laugh at you when I tell them.

No One Said It Was Going to be Easy

So you think running is too hard?

Yeah that cramp during the first mile hurts.

And sucks when you get to the half way point and have to keep going.

And that last mile hurts.

And your shins are screaming at you, begging you to stop.

And you start wheezing with a lap left to go.

And you're not cute when you're bright red.

And walking across campus after drenched in sweat is gross.

But that's assuming you can walk and your hips aren't making you hunch over in pain

The ice cups are cold and wet and hurt.

The stretching hurts.

So yeah- running is hard and it hurts, but you know what hurts more?

Not being able to run, not pushing your body, nbot finishing, not knowing that you can do it. So what's harder running or failing?